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Post by sickspirit on Jul 11, 2014 16:31:28 GMT
I'm at a loss for how to look at reality, both inside and outside. I've been exposed to various spiritual teachings that talk about physical reality being an illusion. Does anybody have a lot of understanding about this? I'm also highly curious how to look at inner reality the way I can often get an energetic response like I caused excitement to a soul by thinking a great thought related to them.
A recurring theme in my life has been that with basically every one of my goals that would surely bring me to life, people manifest to deny it in ways appearing stupid and irrational far beyond belief. This has gone on for years and happened in basically every one of a ton of cases. If a person knew the details I do and was reasonable, they would surely acknowledge some spiritual dynamic has to be at work to have had events unfold the way they did. I don't claim to have any idea what that dynamic is, but it clearly exists.
There was a big case of life working highly irrational to block my goal the other night. Reasoning tells me the goal should have been very easy to reach and it surely would have triggered a radical positive transformation of my life. There is this girl I like a lot that has an Instragram account that she posts inspirational stuff on. I decided to make an Instagram account and see if I could open the door to communicating with her. I put a ton of care into how my Instagram presence would show up so as to help create excitement and avoid setting off red flags. I left her two comments on her most recent post. In the first one I started saying some things relevant to her post that were interesting. After that I explained how I made the account for the purpose of trying to talk to her, I have an extremely exciting opportunity to help many lives while making good money, and she's my #1 ideal person to offer it to. In the second comment I mentioned how regardless of the opportunity, I would still really love and be honored to talk to her. I said how I have a ton of respect for her and get the feeling she's spiritual enough she could likely help me understand life more than someone like a pastor. How did things play out? Exactly like how seemed most likely given the repeating theme in my life. She blocked me without asking one a single question or saying one word to me. Those were the events in my outer reality. In my inner reality I have a ton of history of things like when I was thinking + writing about the opportunity I could offer her, I felt an intense energy into me and flirting with me.
How to look at reality? Help understanding would be so much appreciated.
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Post by sickspirit on Jul 12, 2014 0:06:44 GMT
Wow. Right after posting this I checked my e-mail and saw I finally got a response from a news company. I'm thankful for whatever the reason is I finally got a response. I had sent out so many e-mails explaining I could offer exceptionally exciting stories and thought I would never find a company that cared. I don't know how this will play out, but at least the door to communication is open it looks like. I sent some details about a local news story that could be done and await hearing back questions.
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Post by billmcelligott on Jul 12, 2014 9:25:07 GMT
Good luck
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Post by sickspirit on Jul 12, 2014 18:28:20 GMT
Thanks. It's very exciting having it look like the door to communication with a news company finally opened. At the same time I feel awkward like maybe God doesn't want certain things about me in the news, especially controversial spiritual things. It seems pretty controversial I'm such an extreme case involving divine intervention that has gone on years. I wish I had a way I could get insights from God, angels, spirit guides, or whoever understands my situation from a higher level. I've wondered if any advanced souls on here would be able to help.
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Post by sickspirit on Jul 12, 2014 22:33:06 GMT
I find it neat the default profile pic they gave me. With the interpersonal energies I feel inside on a daily basis, I feel like I have my head in the sky (higher reality). I don't have any inner vision though and that makes me feel like my eyes are closed. Grey is an interesting color when considering I try to be a great ethical person & light in the world, but at the same time have some some darker traits like being a pothead that likes sex too much. The shadow on the left side of the pic kinda looks like a TV screen to me. I feel like some of my dreams will make me like a celebrity in higher reality (sky), but it's also easy to imagine I'm too controversial an influence to the group of souls that's significantly lighter / holy. For instance I wonder could it be a sign I'm largely being filtered from knowledge by the vast majority of that more holy group of souls. If something like that is true, it's easy to imagine that could be a big part of the spiritual dynamic that has clearly tried to keep me from getting significant attention. Just ideas, I'm not really sure how to think about things.
With that spiritual girl I mentioned in my first post, I had a vision of her telling me to wake up. I seriously feel like that might be what I need. To open my inner vision and understand the higher reality my head can operate in much better.
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Post by crossbow on Jul 15, 2014 7:31:05 GMT
Stop smoking the pot, and don't smoke it again.
It is a drug of self delusion; it causes people to fantasise and believe highfaluting nonsense about themselves while not achieving any of it.
Keep smoking it and at best you will become a burnt out fool with fanciful grand ideas that amount to nothing in your life, or at worst, a psychiatric case with depression and psychosis.
Words evident thought. Your posts suggest you are already on your way there, so you have to make a change now.
If you need help to get off the delusion-weed then get to a narcotics anonymous group.
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Post by peter2 on Jul 16, 2014 2:49:11 GMT
... I wonder could it be a sign I'm largely being filtered from knowledge by the vast majority of that more holy group of souls. In the Masonic tradition, the brother is told to be moral and upright, and have all relationships in good order, to qualify to be admitted to the hidden mysteries of nature and science. The admission is not by the lodge these days (as Masonry has lost the genuine secrets) but as by Nature itself. And Nature is not fooled.
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Post by sickspirit on Jul 16, 2014 18:49:21 GMT
Without asking me one question, you tell me I should quit something that I love forever? I will acknowledge weed influencing delusional thoughts in me, but I'm also aware that I do a pretty good job not believing them unless it seems reasonable.
I'm fairly excited that I just the other day found out about and ordered a book called Bodies of Light. I'm really hoping following it leads me to some breakthroughs like maybe opening my third eye and causing me to understand why the divine has intentionally worked hard against me for years. I feel like my case might be the most extreme case of divine intervention ever and thus far all I've been able to do is guess reasons maybe why it's happened.
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Post by sickspirit on Jul 16, 2014 19:43:57 GMT
... I wonder could it be a sign I'm largely being filtered from knowledge by the vast majority of that more holy group of souls. In the Masonic tradition, the brother is told to be moral and upright, and have all relationships in good order, to qualify to be admitted to the hidden mysteries of nature and science. The admission is not by the lodge these days (as Masonry has lost the genuine secrets) but as by Nature itself. And Nature is not fooled. That's a happy thought. I don't like the idea of having powers of wickedness in high spiritual places. It really sucks hardcore that life divinely worked against me so much, but at the same time I'm happy to know that divine intervention is possible in cases where it's justified. In my case I feel like I'm totally a force for good and not evil, but at the same time worry about the influence I would be. It's already scary wondering what kind of influence I would be to earth and I could imagine it's even crazier when considering invisible worlds. I'm actually pretty amazed I can be so sexual a person while having naturally developed an intense halo without esoteric knowledge. It's too hard for me to anticipate the influence I would be.
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Post by peter2 on Jul 18, 2014 2:58:42 GMT
> I don't like the idea of having powers of wickedness in high spiritual places. The presence of the powers of wickedness in high places (St Paul) is the same as the war in the heavens (Revelation of St John) and the same as Star Wars (Reagan) en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Strategic_Defense_Initiative . The extent of interference with the human race is a daily problem - in my perception. > I'm actually pretty amazed I can be so sexual a person while having naturally developed an intense halo without esoteric knowledge. Human sexual activity can be triggered externally. I once asked a group of 6 women and 4 immediately remembered waking in the middle of the night for vigorous sex with their partner, while both were still half asleep. This is almost always a sign of external interference - whether light or dark
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Post by sickspirit on Jul 18, 2014 5:36:22 GMT
> I don't like the idea of having powers of wickedness in high spiritual places. The presence of the powers of wickedness in high places (St Paul) is the same as the war in the heavens (Revelation of St John) and the same as Star Wars (Reagan) en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Strategic_Defense_Initiative . The extent of interference with the human race is a daily problem - in my perception. > I'm actually pretty amazed I can be so sexual a person while having naturally developed an intense halo without esoteric knowledge. Human sexual activity can be triggered externally. I once asked a group of 6 women and 4 immediately remembered waking in the middle of the night for vigorous sex with their partner, while both were still half asleep. This is almost always a sign of external interference - whether light or dark I don't get the relation of wicked spiritual forces to the Star Wars program. I'm wondering what you're talking about when you say "The extent of interference with the human race is a daily problem". Not sure if you're talking divine intervention or what. I feel for me it's a conscious choice to be a sexual person. I love girls and sensuality so much! I just feel too skilled in designing my ultimate and would turn various things that are normally negative to be beautiful in my case. For instance I aim to have an exceptionally beautiful love story involving three of my ideal type girls.
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Post by peter2 on Jul 18, 2014 20:42:11 GMT
I don't get the relation of wicked spiritual forces to the Star Wars program. As you may recall the angels at Sodom were physical and needed a place to stay and food to eat. (Genesis 8:1-5) 1And there came two angels to Sodom at even; and Lot sat in the gate of Sodom: and Lot seeing them rose up to meet them; and he bowed himself with his face toward the ground; 2And he said, Behold now, my lords, turn in, I pray you, into your servant's house, and tarry all night, and wash your feet, and ye shall rise up early, and go on your ways. And they said, Nay; but we will abide in the street all night. 3And he pressed upon them greatly; and they turned in unto him, and entered into his house; and he made them a feast, and did bake unleavened bread, and they did eat. If the angels are physical, the devils must be equally physical. These days we call them aliens and the SDI (Star Wars initiative) was and is intended to defend the planet from them (wickedness in high places).
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Post by sammy on Aug 3, 2014 15:42:29 GMT
I don't normally involve myself with drug debates. But I don't believe this is one that requires such scrutiny. If pot made people get nothing done, then no sailor would have ever reached port before 100 years ago.
The united states was founded as a main producer of hemp and tobacco, widely known to even be grown at the white house. The name Marijuana was as a slandering name, produced to promote the production of cotton. Prior to this it was mostly referred to as hemp. Used in almost every aspect of life, even smoking.
Most of our historical "great thinkers" were heavy users of multiple drugs, all though much more natural ones then around in todays times.
I in no way promote someone to try drugs just because of reasons. But I don't think a person should be held accountable for something unless they have proven it to be a problem. Same with any other habit in our human nature.
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