Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 6, 2017 17:39:01 GMT
Losing my mind. I so need a therapist, but conventional ones haven't really been that useful.
Anyone around who can talk directly about secret things like the significance of all the spirit stuff I feel every day?
For instance just now when thinking about being given signs my situation is harming the higher realm, spirit gave a sensation of an energetic tear drop (no physical feeling of crying tho). They constantly give a feeling of chopping off my thumb or like just now punching me in the face (hurts just a little). That is paired though with me knowing I'm awesome and getting praised constantly from spirit. It seems to all come down to the details of that reality and how I influence it (big mystery to me). My favorite gift in life was a crazy exceptional one that justifies me doing sexual things I give a giant thumbs down to normally due to creating depressing history, but it's holy for me.
How do I guide my ethics? What's the nature of how spirits invade my privacy even after prayer not to?
I'm pushed into a corner really wanting a new life chapter getting my own apartment or house where I take up a lot of exercise to get past my chronic fatigue. Right now my situation makes sexual stuff way out of balance. I don't understand it, but somehow life has magically worked to block much money coming my way. I felt multiple times since coming on this forum attempts to give me money in spirit, but it just never gets through as more than a twitch at my wallet.
Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 0:48:23 GMT
Wow what a mind job where I"m at in life. Don't know where to turn for understanding. Spirit just told me to build muscle and maybe that healing+fitness is required before I'm in a realm where things can be spoken about directly.
Just went on Meetup.com and glanced at the profile pic of someone who messaged me. In a fraction of a second I felt an attempt to help me financially by giving a twitch at my wallet pocket. Hard to comprehend the nature. This has happened soooo many times.
Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 0:59:24 GMT
Well I try to be holy and I threaten them all the time back after being given signs of angering ethical transgressions.
I'm unable to visualize anything. Always been that way.
I think it's more they're angered by me for like trapping them or ones they care about into terrible karma. Life fated me a holy multi-girl sexual relationship my virginity was saved for. I haven't thought about another girl in years and it's truly holy + sacred beautiful us as equal soul mates. The temptation from spirits somehow getting awareness of my sex life I think is largely what the attacks are about I suspect. That plus my wanting justice for those who would be enemies and do such a thing with decent girls.
Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 3:07:40 GMT
Wow. You sound like a super interesting person. What you speak of as "planes" I'm not sure how to interpret. To me it all just seems like a vague "spiritual level" where they see my thoughts and respond like via giving me body sensations (ex: thumb chopped off, flirting with me, warning of a trap by triggering the web between my thumb and index finger, or making me itch on purpose).
I have felt the spirit realm cleanse me before. Sadly though I've been like this for years and my brain is like damaged very bad and conditioned to do dark things outside my control. I think the telling me to get in shape is likely because it would help me get better control of my brain and grow spiritually.
It's so hard to understand. Right here paused between paragraphs for a minute I thought about like how human spirit on any level would be taught the importance of protecting karma with sexuality and not creating really depressing history with their interactive sexual experience. Then instantly I felt an attempt to help me financially from a higher level (twitch at my wallet). Higher consciousness is such a mystery to me, but clearly it's real.
Me being vulnerable I suspect is simply just a matter of the gravity of the situation and the desire to attack me so big. Seriously if others did what I do with wonderful girls I would likely vote kill them, make them reincarnate, or something of that intensity. Easy to imagine deaths have already happened over this. So frustrating though because it's holy + sacred beautiful for me and my favorite blessing in life that I totally earned.
Wish I knew how to get money to support healing in my outer reality. I've been tempted to do things like cashing in on my life story, but like today when I was writing summary story stuff related to it spirit gave sensations of tear drops at my eyes. The story is worth a fortune, but seems probably should be kept secret.
Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 4:15:31 GMT
Wow, a very impressive looking diagram quite overwhelming trying to process.
Don't remember ever getting names.
That sounds like a good way to look at it -- adverse energy anchors. It was mostly caused by brain damage from porn addiction. So messed up though this happening to me when I was a sweet prince who never would have done any of the dirty or tainting stuff + dreamed of a love story kissing one girl my whole life. I think they turned me into what the saying "Holy Shit" comes from the way I have lots of deviant vibes or whatever yet never would have done anything dirty. I joke about being poop, but secretly undercover popping out later as Mr. Clean being like "surprise it's me" and feel the spirit realm entertained + praise me for such jokes with much truth. Only got one date by age 30 though and the evil world put a computer with videos of sexy women getting sexual accessible in seconds. The norm was the videos were very distasteful though and I figured as long as I would always treat people beautiful that was what mattered. I never expected brain damage, but got it to the extreme.
I don't know how higher spirits work. I just know I've suffered every waking hour for years while a basic loan would have been revolutionary to transform my health. Paired with that 1000+ times I've felt that twitch at my wallet synced with timing like with intention to try and get financial support (ex: like recently writing possible text to put on a crowdfunding page, fax to Churches, etc.).
I hate the idea of being used to trap others, but it seems against my will I am. Seems like God would have to be lame or the truth is far from "all things are possible for God" for this to happen. All I want is privacy in a way where people would tend to think it's my mental health issues to make me think I don't have privacy. On top of that I epic earned the multiple sexy wife thing like by having it genuinely fated and like the opposite of my aspiration to kiss one girl ever while being hypersexual (ex: porn addict) figuring I would be very wealthy later.
Or not would seem only possible by the story being too large it must be kept secret.
Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 4:32:01 GMT
I suspect their are some very big hidden factors how getting me money might be scary like in a symbolic way. Like oh my God I think if someone like me watched all that porn and would do the dirty + badly tainting things the heavens should "bolt a douche" before letting him get big money. Just felt a spirit try to rape me from behind after writing that previous sentence. Me though I want to protect female from getting used/tainted
Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 5:06:35 GMT
So curious the details behind some of what you said like "I expect that the porn was merely a means of re-activating the connections." and "In my limited observation of such cases, the partners are often organized by the same intelligences."
I honestly expect my 3 wife marriage is one of the most philosophically interesting things ever. For instance somehow in the hierarchy of powers my physical reality manifested a major motion picture movie that appears to have prophesied my marriage, but in a way making me wonder if it could have been Satan for instance. Then a second movie prophesied another topmost epic aspect of it. Easy to reverse engineer higher level intelligence foreseeing the potentials, but wow what the heck is going on?
I'm not clear on that war, but I suspect I know one of the topmost issues with it where I'm of extremely high relevance. Maybe you want to talk in private about it.
As for that spirit, I picked up my scissors and wished for the power of God to send them to the origin of that rape attempt and chop off the genitals. Seems the spirit was probably expressing anger wanting to like kill/rape me and God had the power to choose how it came through (mostly just annoying).
I don't need big money. I need little / medium money. I just need to get my own place to focus on idealistic healing for a few months not worried about bills. This place I'm in now drives me insane with the other people in it. I want to get a home gym, nice kitchen like w/ a juicer + organic veggies to juice, maybe do juice fasting, and maybe spend like 3+ hours a day on a Migun massage bed split into 3-5 sessions with great health promoting things inbetween sessions. I'm happy to have God guide things in the area of if I ever let myself enjoy the perks of like millionaire type money, I don't care that much. I just want to get healthy. It's hard even trying to lay in bed trying to fall asleep right now. Suffered every waking hour for years when easy to help by profiting off me. Crazy nonsense...
Dark spirits often reward the captive human (the asset) with a fake story that gives the asset a sense of personal identity and value. The controlling spirit thereby provides the asset's life with meaning - although quite false.
Even when the interaction is not from dark spirits there can still be problems.
I have known moderately well 2 people that believed they were Jesus. One said I was Joseph and the other said I was Judas - so I know one of them was a fake.
One of them was existing in an energy bubble and when the Christ energy approached her bubble it produced images that in her Christian context she interpreted as Jesus - and then decided that she was Jesus - although she did tend to look carefully at people when she made that claim - to see if they believed her - as she was not too sure herself.
Anyway I decided to rescue her so I collapsed the energy bubble that was showing the Christ images. At that stage she became introverted for 2 days and rebuilt the bubble.
I left her to it.
In retrospect I should have looked for a more subtle method than collapsing her energy bubble. I could for example have moved the entry point of the Christ energy so that it was not so visible to her.
People often do not wish to be rescued as their lives then appear empty.
The stuff you talk about is beyond me man, I'm just getting back on the right track with practicing Falun Dafa.
I had some experience with higher states of consciousness when I was on the BOTA/Masonry wavelength but nothing to the extent that you mention.
As far as the energy bubble you speak is concerned, I'm not entirely sure but it sounds like maybe you're talking about a field of energy produced by a spirit?
I often get intuitive hunches, but I have no way of checking their validity as I'm not a psychic.
Sometimes they are quite strong, I was once on the verge of freaking out at someone who walked near me for no reason-- I sensed an extremely dark energy.
I think I'm an empath, but at the same time it's sometimes hard to stay balanced and not jump to conclusions based on impulse.
In terms of my own experience with the demonic obsession that I mentioned, the opportunities for me to escape came in the form of 'tests'. I was thrown into a bad situation before I was ready for it, and it sounds like the same might be happening to seekingknowledge.
sbs59: Can someone help me with this question. I was a Master Mason for 4 years until last year. My father died and i left the Masons as i was depressed about his death. Can i now re join a lodge?
May 21, 2019 10:07:41 GMT
The Ancient: sbs59: Were you suspended for non payment of dues? if so, square up and petition the lodge for a restatement vote. If your dues are current, your still a member. In this case, it is all about the Benjamins.
May 27, 2019 0:49:07 GMT