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Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 6, 2017 17:39:01 GMT
Losing my mind. I so need a therapist, but conventional ones haven't really been that useful.
Anyone around who can talk directly about secret things like the significance of all the spirit stuff I feel every day?
For instance just now when thinking about being given signs my situation is harming the higher realm, spirit gave a sensation of an energetic tear drop (no physical feeling of crying tho). They constantly give a feeling of chopping off my thumb or like just now punching me in the face (hurts just a little). That is paired though with me knowing I'm awesome and getting praised constantly from spirit. It seems to all come down to the details of that reality and how I influence it (big mystery to me). My favorite gift in life was a crazy exceptional one that justifies me doing sexual things I give a giant thumbs down to normally due to creating depressing history, but it's holy for me.
How do I guide my ethics? What's the nature of how spirits invade my privacy even after prayer not to?
I'm pushed into a corner really wanting a new life chapter getting my own apartment or house where I take up a lot of exercise to get past my chronic fatigue. Right now my situation makes sexual stuff way out of balance. I don't understand it, but somehow life has magically worked to block much money coming my way. I felt multiple times since coming on this forum attempts to give me money in spirit, but it just never gets through as more than a twitch at my wallet.
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Post by peter2 on Jan 6, 2017 22:44:44 GMT
>What's the nature of how spirits invade my privacy A good question but the symptoms you describe do not tend to a good answer. >They constantly give a feeling of chopping off my thumb or like just now punching me in the face (hurts just a little). Do you think that threats of violence come from good spirits? >get past my chronic fatigue Not a good sign. Check your aura for gaps. Check your living and sleeping areas for geopathic stress. Targeted individuals are steered to such places to weaken them. www.geomantica.com/articles/what-is-geopathic-stress/
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Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 0:36:45 GMT
Not sure what you mean by my symptoms described don't tend a good answer.
Sure threats of violence can come from good spirits. For instance a spirit wanting to protect those it cares about at risk.
Not really understanding of how to check my aura for gaps. I can read more about geopathic stress, but surely that's not the issue. These spirits attack me wherever I am physically.
They invade my privacy not just physically, but these spirits see my thoughts. So perplexed. My thoughts even trap the lowly ones invading my privacy I suspect.
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Post by peter2 on Jan 7, 2017 0:42:52 GMT
>Sure threats of violence can come from good spirits.
Never in my experience.
>Not really understanding of how to check my aura for gaps
Visualize stepping out of your body and look back at your aura. Particularly check around the head and along the spine.
>They invade my privacy not just physically, but these spirits see my thoughts.
Why do they not respect you?
Have you given them permission to access your system?
Try lifting your consciousness to higher levels and see if they can follow.
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Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 0:48:23 GMT
Wow what a mind job where I"m at in life. Don't know where to turn for understanding. Spirit just told me to build muscle and maybe that healing+fitness is required before I'm in a realm where things can be spoken about directly.
Just went on Meetup.com and glanced at the profile pic of someone who messaged me. In a fraction of a second I felt an attempt to help me financially by giving a twitch at my wallet pocket. Hard to comprehend the nature. This has happened soooo many times.
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Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 0:59:24 GMT
Well I try to be holy and I threaten them all the time back after being given signs of angering ethical transgressions.
I'm unable to visualize anything. Always been that way.
I think it's more they're angered by me for like trapping them or ones they care about into terrible karma. Life fated me a holy multi-girl sexual relationship my virginity was saved for. I haven't thought about another girl in years and it's truly holy + sacred beautiful us as equal soul mates. The temptation from spirits somehow getting awareness of my sex life I think is largely what the attacks are about I suspect. That plus my wanting justice for those who would be enemies and do such a thing with decent girls.
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Post by peter2 on Jan 7, 2017 1:14:59 GMT
>Well I try to be holy I used to share a house with a fellow who sometimes suffered from possession. He came to me one time for help so I went up a couple of planes and zapped the entity. Still there. Up another plane. Same result Up another plane. Still the same. What sort of entity could this be? So I asked: what is happening? And was told that I was dislodging the entity but that it was immediately re-entering. Apparently the reason was that this fellow was being deliberately negative and that was a direct invitation to the entity. His negativity was continuing to live and work there when he knew he should leave. Negativity can be very subtle. Similar examples appear in "Spirit Releasement Therapy". This is a most valuable book. www.amazon.com/Spirit-Releasement-Therapy-Technique-Manual/dp/092991516X>I'm unable to visualize anything. Always been that way I am not clear that this is a natural condition. >spirits somehow getting awareness of my sex life I think is largely what the attacks are about Rather than consider the motive for attack, you may be better to consider what makes you vulnerable. This may be an ancient and/or long forgotten matter. > justice for those who would be enemies The concept of enemy arises from entanglement in lower levels of consciousness.
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Post by peter2 on Jan 7, 2017 1:19:46 GMT
> Spirit just told me
If you are not controlling your level of consciousness it is very difficult to determine the level on which the particular spirit exists - or indeed its light-dark balance.
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Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 3:07:40 GMT
Wow. You sound like a super interesting person. What you speak of as "planes" I'm not sure how to interpret. To me it all just seems like a vague "spiritual level" where they see my thoughts and respond like via giving me body sensations (ex: thumb chopped off, flirting with me, warning of a trap by triggering the web between my thumb and index finger, or making me itch on purpose).
I have felt the spirit realm cleanse me before. Sadly though I've been like this for years and my brain is like damaged very bad and conditioned to do dark things outside my control. I think the telling me to get in shape is likely because it would help me get better control of my brain and grow spiritually.
It's so hard to understand. Right here paused between paragraphs for a minute I thought about like how human spirit on any level would be taught the importance of protecting karma with sexuality and not creating really depressing history with their interactive sexual experience. Then instantly I felt an attempt to help me financially from a higher level (twitch at my wallet). Higher consciousness is such a mystery to me, but clearly it's real.
Me being vulnerable I suspect is simply just a matter of the gravity of the situation and the desire to attack me so big. Seriously if others did what I do with wonderful girls I would likely vote kill them, make them reincarnate, or something of that intensity. Easy to imagine deaths have already happened over this. So frustrating though because it's holy + sacred beautiful for me and my favorite blessing in life that I totally earned.
Wish I knew how to get money to support healing in my outer reality. I've been tempted to do things like cashing in on my life story, but like today when I was writing summary story stuff related to it spirit gave sensations of tear drops at my eyes. The story is worth a fortune, but seems probably should be kept secret.
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Post by peter2 on Jan 7, 2017 3:38:23 GMT
>What you speak of as "planes" I'm not sure how to interpret Access at will to planes, subplanes, subsubplanes etc is necessary to much of spiritual science. www.kheper.net/integral/planes.htmlAsk your spirits to point out on which plane and subplane they operate. I am most interested to know what they say. Do they give you their names? >my brain is like damaged very bad There are adverse energy anchors in your brain. It is more positive to think in terms of dealing with adverse energies than in terms of damage. Who/what caused the damage? > instantly I felt an attempt to help me financially from a higher level (twitch at my wallet). Is money the usual means of payment by higher spirits? > Seriously if others did what I do with wonderful girls I would likely vote kill them Are you being used to trap others? >my favorite blessing in life that I totally earned. How did you earn it? >The story is worth a fortune Or not.
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Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 4:15:31 GMT
Wow, a very impressive looking diagram quite overwhelming trying to process.
Don't remember ever getting names.
That sounds like a good way to look at it -- adverse energy anchors. It was mostly caused by brain damage from porn addiction. So messed up though this happening to me when I was a sweet prince who never would have done any of the dirty or tainting stuff + dreamed of a love story kissing one girl my whole life. I think they turned me into what the saying "Holy Shit" comes from the way I have lots of deviant vibes or whatever yet never would have done anything dirty. I joke about being poop, but secretly undercover popping out later as Mr. Clean being like "surprise it's me" and feel the spirit realm entertained + praise me for such jokes with much truth. Only got one date by age 30 though and the evil world put a computer with videos of sexy women getting sexual accessible in seconds. The norm was the videos were very distasteful though and I figured as long as I would always treat people beautiful that was what mattered. I never expected brain damage, but got it to the extreme.
I don't know how higher spirits work. I just know I've suffered every waking hour for years while a basic loan would have been revolutionary to transform my health. Paired with that 1000+ times I've felt that twitch at my wallet synced with timing like with intention to try and get financial support (ex: like recently writing possible text to put on a crowdfunding page, fax to Churches, etc.).
I hate the idea of being used to trap others, but it seems against my will I am. Seems like God would have to be lame or the truth is far from "all things are possible for God" for this to happen. All I want is privacy in a way where people would tend to think it's my mental health issues to make me think I don't have privacy. On top of that I epic earned the multiple sexy wife thing like by having it genuinely fated and like the opposite of my aspiration to kiss one girl ever while being hypersexual (ex: porn addict) figuring I would be very wealthy later.
Or not would seem only possible by the story being too large it must be kept secret.
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Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 4:23:57 GMT
Thanks for talking by the way. The forum looked like it hadn't had much activity and I worried it would take days to hear from anyone. You seem super interesting.
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Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 4:32:01 GMT
I suspect their are some very big hidden factors how getting me money might be scary like in a symbolic way. Like oh my God I think if someone like me watched all that porn and would do the dirty + badly tainting things the heavens should "bolt a douche" before letting him get big money. Just felt a spirit try to rape me from behind after writing that previous sentence. Me though I want to protect female from getting used/tainted
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Post by peter2 on Jan 7, 2017 4:47:50 GMT
>very impressive looking diagram quite overwhelming trying to process There are techniques for accessing the planes but better that you sort out your anchors first and your thinking patterns. > It was mostly caused by brain damage from porn addiction In my experience humans are used as assets over a series of incarnations. I expect that the porn was merely a means of re-activating the connections. > I just know I've suffered every waking hour for years while a basic loan would have been revolutionary When in poor health it is much harder to resist dark spirits > I epic earned the multiple sexy wife thing like by having it genuinely fated In my limited observation of such cases, the partners are often organized by the same intelligences. These assets may also be run by humans. See for example The Trance Formation of America. >the truth is far from "all things are possible for God" for this to happen The War in the Heavens also happens on Earth. The various parties seek to attract and manage human assets. > Just felt a spirit try to rape me from behind after writing that previous sentence. How did you deal with the situation? What effect was the spirit trying to achieve? >before letting him get big money What makes you think that big money would help? Here’s How Winning the Lottery Makes You MiserableI suspect that money is like a carrot that you cannot reach
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Post by seekingknowledge on Jan 7, 2017 5:06:35 GMT
So curious the details behind some of what you said like "I expect that the porn was merely a means of re-activating the connections." and "In my limited observation of such cases, the partners are often organized by the same intelligences."
I honestly expect my 3 wife marriage is one of the most philosophically interesting things ever. For instance somehow in the hierarchy of powers my physical reality manifested a major motion picture movie that appears to have prophesied my marriage, but in a way making me wonder if it could have been Satan for instance. Then a second movie prophesied another topmost epic aspect of it. Easy to reverse engineer higher level intelligence foreseeing the potentials, but wow what the heck is going on?
I'm not clear on that war, but I suspect I know one of the topmost issues with it where I'm of extremely high relevance. Maybe you want to talk in private about it.
As for that spirit, I picked up my scissors and wished for the power of God to send them to the origin of that rape attempt and chop off the genitals. Seems the spirit was probably expressing anger wanting to like kill/rape me and God had the power to choose how it came through (mostly just annoying).
I don't need big money. I need little / medium money. I just need to get my own place to focus on idealistic healing for a few months not worried about bills. This place I'm in now drives me insane with the other people in it. I want to get a home gym, nice kitchen like w/ a juicer + organic veggies to juice, maybe do juice fasting, and maybe spend like 3+ hours a day on a Migun massage bed split into 3-5 sessions with great health promoting things inbetween sessions. I'm happy to have God guide things in the area of if I ever let myself enjoy the perks of like millionaire type money, I don't care that much. I just want to get healthy. It's hard even trying to lay in bed trying to fall asleep right now. Suffered every waking hour for years when easy to help by profiting off me. Crazy nonsense...
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Post by peter2 on Jan 7, 2017 5:51:55 GMT
PM sent
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Post by seekinglight on Jan 9, 2017 20:14:19 GMT
Hey man, I have been practicing Falun Dafa lately, and it may be able to help. I would try reading the book Zhuan Falun on en.falundafa.org
Peter seems to know quite a bit as well, so I would listen to him.
That being said, check out Falun Dafa.
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Post by peter2 on Jan 9, 2017 22:56:44 GMT
Dark spirits often reward the captive human (the asset) with a fake story that gives the asset a sense of personal identity and value. The controlling spirit thereby provides the asset's life with meaning - although quite false. The asset is often unwilling to give up the "special" relationship with the spirits. This is a form of Stockholm Syndrome. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stockholm_syndromeEven when the interaction is not from dark spirits there can still be problems. I have known moderately well 2 people that believed they were Jesus. One said I was Joseph and the other said I was Judas - so I know one of them was a fake. One of them was existing in an energy bubble and when the Christ energy approached her bubble it produced images that in her Christian context she interpreted as Jesus - and then decided that she was Jesus - although she did tend to look carefully at people when she made that claim - to see if they believed her - as she was not too sure herself. Anyway I decided to rescue her so I collapsed the energy bubble that was showing the Christ images. At that stage she became introverted for 2 days and rebuilt the bubble. I left her to it. In retrospect I should have looked for a more subtle method than collapsing her energy bubble. I could for example have moved the entry point of the Christ energy so that it was not so visible to her. People often do not wish to be rescued as their lives then appear empty.
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Post by seekinglight on Jan 10, 2017 3:12:55 GMT
The stuff you talk about is beyond me man, I'm just getting back on the right track with practicing Falun Dafa.
I had some experience with higher states of consciousness when I was on the BOTA/Masonry wavelength but nothing to the extent that you mention.
As far as the energy bubble you speak is concerned, I'm not entirely sure but it sounds like maybe you're talking about a field of energy produced by a spirit?
I often get intuitive hunches, but I have no way of checking their validity as I'm not a psychic.
Sometimes they are quite strong, I was once on the verge of freaking out at someone who walked near me for no reason-- I sensed an extremely dark energy.
I think I'm an empath, but at the same time it's sometimes hard to stay balanced and not jump to conclusions based on impulse.
In terms of my own experience with the demonic obsession that I mentioned, the opportunities for me to escape came in the form of 'tests'. I was thrown into a bad situation before I was ready for it, and it sounds like the same might be happening to seekingknowledge.
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Post by seekinglight on Jan 22, 2017 23:46:02 GMT
Forgot to mention this: may the archangels Michael and Khamael pursue anyone reading this thread who has ill intentions for seekingknowledge.
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